Thursday

heyy. there's no school tmr. yay. lol.


I'm feeling quite er.. dunno hw to say la. It's like I want to get into RJC through IP but like 10 ppl frm our sch can get in? then like what am i doing.. i'm like stupid. so I want to like, work hard, and improve my grades alot.. esp when I'm in like GY when i prob have to be in SY to get into RJ. That's like so sad. I want Lynne to come w/ me. :(

I need tuition. for history and lit and math. howw. i hope i do well this year la. shit. I have so many tests. and i think i want to improve my clarinet alot this year? so that I can at least play first or something.. if i dun get into IP. then I won't be so sad. :( I'm sad now. dunno why lehh.

I'm like so scared la. what if I don't do well.. then what? I think I shall ban myself from coming online on weekdays. Guess how long that's gonna hold up. prob less than a week? omg. I need to study more. and be more hardworking. and talk more. like.. learn how to communicate properly. yeah. because now like I'm so quiet around those ppl i'm not used to.. shy. yeahh. whatever. i'm feeling so stupid now. I need someone to talk to. oh well.

love you all X)

xoxo-marissa