HEYY.
I'M ANGRY TODAY
ANGRY AND FRUSTRATED.
BECAUSE OF YESTERDAY
WHICH WAS SO DAMN SCREWED.
I SCREWED UP IN BAND
YESTERDAY
LOTS OF TIMES.
I FEEL RIDICULOUSLY FOOLISH NOW.
AND STUPID TOO.
WHY?
BECAUSE I HAD TO BE
STUPID
AND
DUMB
THE WHOLE OF YESTERDAY.
EXCEPT IN THE NIGHT
WHERE I WAS NOT SO RIDICULOUSLY
STUPID
AND
DUMB.
SO NOW,
I'M
STUPIDLY
AND
DUMBLY
VENTING MY ANGER AND FRUSTRATION HERE.
IN A
STUPID
AND
DUMB WAY,
LIKE ALL
STUPID
AND
DUMB
PEOPLE DO >.<
AND I NEARLY CHOKED ON WATER
THREE TIMES
IN THE PAST 15 MINUTES.
I MUST BE FATED.
AND THERE I GO,
DRINKING WATER AGAIN.
YOU WOULD THINK I'D HAVE LEARNT MY LESSON BY NOW,
BUT WEIRDLY,
I HAVE NOT.
SO NOW,
I'M ANGRY, FRUSTRATED AND WEIRD.
THREE WORDS TO DESCRIBE MY STUPID AND DUMB LIFE,
DON'T YOU THINK?
DON'T TALK TO ME RIGHT NOW.
WHEN I'M VENTING MY ANGER
AND YOU TALK TO ME
I'D NOT TREAT YOU IN A VERY NICE WAY,
LIKE I USUALLY DO. *COUGH*
I WANT THE EARTH TO OPEN UP AND SWALLOW ME.
BUT NOT THE EARTH UNDER THE OCEAN.
NO MORE TSUNAMIS PLEASE.
I THINK THE WORLD HAS HAD ENOUGH OF THOSE FOR THE REST OF IT'S LIFETIME.
WAIT A SECOND.
WHAT DO I CARE ANYWAY?
I HATE MYSELF.
BUT I LOVE
MY FAMILY - WHO'S BEEN BY MY SIDE SINCE I CAME INTO THIS WORLD( EXCEPT MY SISTER, WHO'S BEEN BY MY SIDE 4 YEARS AFTER I CAME INTO THIS WORLD.)
MY FRIENDS - WHO HAVE BEEN THERE FOR ME IN TIMES LIKE THIS, AND HAVE SHARED HAPPY TIMES WITH ME, FOR WHICH I WILL ALWAYS TREASURE.
MY ENEMIES - WHO DESERVE TO BE LOVED. FOR ALL I KNOW, THEY HATE ME. BUT I WILL NOT HATE THEM BACK, FOR THAT DOES NOT MAKE THEM LIKE ME MORE, DOES IT?
NATURE - WHICH HAS CALMED ME DOWN WITH IT'S BEAUTIFUL ARCHITECTURE.
AND LASTLY,
GOD - THE CREATOR OF ALL THINGS. WHO HAS CREATED EVERYTHING THAT I LOVE ON EARTH: MY FAMILY, MY FRIENDS, MY ENEMIES, AND MOST OF ALL, NATURE. I AM GRATEFUL FOR ALL THESE THINGS, AND MORE.
LOOK.
I'M NOT ANGRY ANYMORE.
I APPRECIATE THINGS AROUND ME.
I DO NOT TAKE THEM FOR GRANTED.
I LOVE YOU.

xoxo-marissa