What ifs.

Sometimes I wonder, what if everything were different?

What if I never met Maxy? What would life be now?
Hmmm. Lets see. I'd either be really happy everyday or really emo everyday, neither of which is good :( I'd have less friends (not even that I have alot now anyways), I'd not be in SAJC to meet all those great people, I'd be like 200000000000000kg now, I'd be a MUGGER, and well... I'd just be like a vacuum cleaner. I'd SUCK. Well, I still do, but maybe not so much. So thats good.

What if I never went to SCGS?
(Tell me why I even went there in the first place)
Hmmm. I'd most probably be in like Cedar. o_O I'm sick of all the girls school crap. Life'll probably be the same.

I find it quite ironic that the whole time I'm in an all girls' school I'm waiting for the time i can get outta there and say BYEBYE because I just don't relate to many of the people there. ALL my friends in secondary school were guys. Joke. Then now I'm in SAJC (A mixed school, FINALLY), all my friends are girls. No big problem with that but I just find it funny how I don't know a SINGLE guy in SAJC well. Besides maybe keith. but I don't know him that well either right? But maybe its nice to have some girlfriends after all that years of hiding out in the library. Actually, come to think of it, I kind of miss my individualism at that point in time. I could do whatever I wanted, anytime I wanted without having to worry about other people. Its also one of the reasons why I like to go shopping alone. Unless its with Maxy then I can drag him everywhere. But he never allows me to. :( But its okay!

Hmmm. What if I never joined band? Where would I be now?
My mum wouldn't let me join the choir >.< So frankly, I have no idea where I'd be. Probably still in Netball. Actually being in netball wouldn't be all that bad, would it? I wouldn't be so fat now lah :( BUTBUTBUT. That being said, I would NEVER EVER have met Maxy if I were in netball. So there's NO WAY i regret joining band. NO FREAKING WAY. and also, because of band, now I have met many awesome people in Philyouth!! :) Whom I miss dearly!! Eh when is practice starting again? :D

What if... What if... What if...
Time to regret all those choices I made (and those choices that people made for me), and to rejoice in the good ones! What is pleasure if you do not know pain? So screw what happened in the past, I live here, I live now. Anyway, I've been living these two weeks like it were holidays already, so I will take the exams one day at a time, and be happy when its all over. Or be happy now, even though its not over but feels like it is.

GO GO POWER RANGERS. I like the pink one. I'm gay.