May 31, 2007

Makes me wonder...

:DDDDDD

I'm in a really good mood today, because maxy had lunch with me ytd! :D

And you see how little things can really improve my mood.

I am going the wrong way, and I'm succumbing to the 'adam's music taste' syndrome. ABIT. =/
I just realise that the songs aren't that bad after all. Lol. Jason Mraz, Maroon 5 ...

... makes me wonder. :D

K, time for more work, and less play. My mum's gna murder me if she turns around and looks at the comp.

TIME FOR....

... WORDPLAY !

(omg there's smth wrong with me.)

TATA !


May 27, 2007

<33

HELLO.

I watched POTC on Friday with the Adam, Adnaan, and well... many other people. I cant believe its the end. It left me so heart broken, or xin1 tong4, or whtever. BUT AHHHHH.

ORLANDO BLOOM IS SO HOT. =/ I cant believe im still obsessing abt him.. started in p5, omg theres something wrong with me ! (max dont kill me plz) & now you know why i was so whiny that day after the show. :(

OKAY I SHALL STOP OBSESSING ABOUT HIM, OR I'LL BE SIGNING MY DEATH WARRANT.

byebye. (OMG AHHHHH !!!)

May 22, 2007

the rose <3

Some say love it is a river
that drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razer
that leaves your soul to blead

Some say love it is a hunger
an endless aching need
I say love it is a flower
and you it's only seed

It's the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of wakingthat never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dyingthat never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winterfar beneath the bitter snows
lies the seed
that with the sun's love
in the spring
becomes the rose

-bette midler.

AHHH i love this song.

BATAM :D

Hello`



HEHEHEHE.



I'm in Batam now! :D Ponn 2 days of school =/ I think my partner is v happy.. dont have me arnd more space to put things... lol. She can utilise my table well, right Geraldine? xD



DID ANYONE MISS ME??? ahaha.



I did the flying fox! from the top of the hotel down to near the pool there, & my dad took a video. Lol. It was damn fun! Went twice! But the guy, he didnt let me jump off the ledge myself! I wanted to feel what it was like to commit suicide =/. But i have a phobia of heights, so.. might as well. :D

K, so first day, flying fox, then we went to the pizzeria to order pizza. xD Brought it back to the room, and played gin rummy until like 10+pm. or 11+ in SG time. Can u imagine, we all slept at 10+!! amazing. lol.

2nd day, went for breakfast at the buffet, which sucked cuz there was barely anything to eat.. =/ , then went to Nagoya for shopping. I didnt really do any shopping there, but I did do a facial! LOL. duno, my sis went to cut hair, then since we didnt really wana wait so each of us did smth at the salon. I had my facial, mum did pedicure, dad did foot reflex.

BUT HELL THE FACIAL WAS OMGWTF PAIN !!! at first it was cream after cream after cream, then duno wth she was doing, felt like she was giving my face 10000 injections... >.< seriously. I nearly died there, waiting for it to end. then after that still put some menthol/eucalyptus shit on my face. i was like thinking ... !! TAKE IT OFF! but.. decided to keep quiet.

We went for dinner at this golden prawn restaurant thing, its like those kelong seafood restaurants where u get to pick ur own prawns and seafood and stuff. I dont eat seafood so we were like feasting on vegetables and rice. lol. Pathetic, i know. But it just looked so good in front of all that seafood! Oh, and we saw how they caught the prawns, THE CRUELTY! when they put the net in, all the prawns were jumping about in the net, and some managed to jump out! but they landed on the floor instead of the water, and died anyway. It was so saddening. :(

After bowling, we came back to the hotel. BOWLING BOWLING! :D Lol, i beat my mum with my miserable score, it was so funny. LOL. 88? and i can beat my mum? she was supposed to be alot better than me. but it was fun. Especially watching my sister. Cuz my sister didnt know how to bowl, she held the ball like.. weirdly. and then walking up to the lane.. she sorta had like a spring in her step, and looked like she was doing a catwalk. Comical! We kept laughing.. then frm hitting pins, she ended up getting half her balls in the longkang.. lol. =/ Played pool after that. My mum, sis and I had no idea how to play, and we ended up taking an hour ++ to complete a game, after taking turns. I only got ONE ball in, wth. LOL, but it was fun. Then at the end the live band came to play for us, cuz we were like the last ones left. They played tears in heaven, knocking on heavens door at our request! they played others, but i cant rmb the title. It was cool :D How often do you get a live band all to yourself?

Haha, then this morning, went swimming! lol. Wanted to do water sports, but then mum said something about how this guy was cooking crab, then he got nipped by the raw crab, then had a wound. He neglected it, and just went about cooking the crab. Ate it, fell sick at night. next morning, woke up with a gangrenous arm, had to amputate it. Died a few hours later, due to some flesh-eating organism introduced into his blood by the crab? So i was too scared to go into the water after that. NO WATER SPORTS. and the beach..wait. THERE WAS NO BEACH! It was just.. murky water. Oh well. So, now its storming outside, and my dad has 2hrs ++ of internet to kill so I'm using it for him.

I miss home, & all the people that come with it, having no roaming SUCKS. I've practically lost contact with everyone back in Singapore.

@ADRIEL; Sorry I couldn't attend your concert!! Wasn't in Singapore. Did you call me? No roaming.. =/ Sorry sorry sorry! mm, another time k?

@GER; Hi, did u collect homework for me? I HOPE YOU DIDNT SLEEP IN CLASS WHILE I WAS AWAY!

@Hilmi; lol, no dota with me , sad? LOL.

@Max; -hug -poke.

OKAAAAAY. Gtg. byebye! I'm coming back today, like WOO! BAND TMR! xD Playing for the concert! :D :D I <3 my section!!

May 08, 2007

Max's quiz! LOL

Leaderboard
Create your own Friend Test here


Max: plz do plz do plz do plz do plz do.

May 06, 2007

I created a test today!!

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Create your own Friend Test here


Hahaha. Heres this test I created today. Go do! hhaha. ^^ xD

May 03, 2007

Labour Day!




NOKIA MUSIC BUS! <3 Cool seats! lols.





JOSHY!



Close up of the hot guy in the MRT. Those who thought it was max, YOU THOUGHT WRONG!



Nicolyy laboring away on labour day, and joshy in e background!



Closer Up of the Hot Guy in the MRT. <3

April 29, 2007



GOOD SPELLING! lol....

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hot guy in the empty MRT... (LOLOLOL. ^^)



JUNIORS!<3



I <3 sec 2 clarinet jrs foreverrrrr. yayyy. ((: Alyssa extra.. LOL.



Cool shot!



Egoistic bastard WEARING MY BADGE. asjkfshfbgfg. bleh.


<3>
Okayy. Random pics from my phone & other sources.

<3

i want to immerse myself in the power of music;
to drown out all the sorrows of this life,
wherein lies all the pain
and the hurt;
only to heal the wounds of the past and the present.

mutilated chicken.

Heartbreakkk.












I hope things get better;
Because I love you.

April 27, 2007

Marvelous!

I

SO

DO

NOT

WANT

TO

PLAY

BASS

FOR

EBTP.

zzzz. But oh well, I'm stuck playing now, so lets just get it over and done with. BOOOO.

Anyways, I've gotten over whatever has happened and I'm happy now WHEEEEE. SAJC concert tomorrow, PY prac on Sunday, and Band Prac on monday (YAYYYYY)! Y'know actually I'm just trying to delude myself to make myself happy. But.. Haiiz. lol. NVM MONDAY = JUNIORS! There's no way i'm gna stay sad for long (:

&CherylHo, Thanks for screaming my name really loudly everytime you see me along the corridor. It really earns me alot of stares. Lol.

@Nicole, HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! ^^ Forget abt the past. hahaha.

April 26, 2007

the Root of the equation.

WHY WHY WHY. I dont even feel like going for the concert Saturday anymore, the mood is totally ruined, and I cant stop crying. like WOO.

So I've been telling myself these past few days - "Don't cry mar, no one in this whole $%*&ing world is going to give a damn about you anyway, so don't waste your energy." But well, GUESS WHAT. I lost control today, and the whole world came crashing down on me.

So yeah now EVERYTHING is ruined because of me. I think i should just shrivel up and die. Nicole is sad, Max is sad, and Joshua has to go around cheering everyone up. I hate feeling helpless, I hate making people sad, but sometimes it seems that all i do is that. I feel like breaking off all contact with the world and just hiding in my house. Few will miss me. People in my class won't even give a damn that I'm gone, just like they don't even when I'm there.

I don't deserve max. I swear, to some loser like me, he sure is patient. Nicole? Well, she's really a very very nice person. I'm not saying this just to make her happy, but its true, I can tell, Max can tell, Joshua can tell.

Sigh..

April 21, 2007

Canon rock!

SEVENTEEN: U LOOK ATTHEIRPROFILE/PICTURE CONSTANTLY

SIXTEEN:WHEN YOU’RE ON THE PHONE WITH THEMLATE AT NIGHT AND THEY HANG UP, YOUSTILL MISS THEM EVEN WHEN IT WAS JUST TWO MINUTES AGO.

FIFTEEN:YOU READ THEIR TEXTS or IMS OVER ANDOVER AGAIN.

FOURTEEN:YOU WALK REALLY SLOW WHEN YOU'RE WITH THEM

THIRTEEN:YOU FEEL SHY WHENEVER YOU'RE/THEY'RE AROUND.

ELEVEN:WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THEM, YOUR HEARTBEATS FASTER AND SLOWER AT THE SAMETIME

TEN:YOU SMILE WHEN YOU HEAR THEIR VOICE.

NINE:WHEN YOU LOOK AT THEM, YOU CAN'T SEE THE OTHER PEOPLE AROUND YOU, All YOU SEE IS HIM//HER.

EIGHT:YOU START LISTENING TO SLOW SONGS,WHILE THINKING OF THEM

SEVEN:THEY'RE ALL YOU THINK ABOUT.

SIX:YOU LOVE THEIR HUGS MORE THAN ANYTHING.

FIVE:YOU REALlZE THAT YOU'RE ALWAYS SMILING TO YOURSELF WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THEM.

FOUR:YOU WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR THEM, OR ANYTHING TO SEE THEM.

THREE:WHILE READING THIS, THERE WAS ONE PERSON ON YOUR MIND THE WHOLE TIME...

TWO:You were so busy thinking about that person, you didnt notice number twelve.

ONE:You just scrolled up to check & are now silently laughing at yourself.

Lol, did you fall for that? ((:

April 14, 2007

DING DONG

Yo.

Oh man I've been wanting to post since last friday, and now i've forgotten wht happened tt i wanted to post :(

But anyway I was reading someone's blog, and it kinda gave me a wake up call.

To that person: it doesnt include the lame stuff at the beginning... that one just served its purpose and made me say, "omg so lame, hahaha."

So i was just thinking, that person has a point. and I'm feeling very sad that I didnt do anything about this earlier. I've been in band for almost four years now, and I believe I've hardly done anything worth mentioning. I could be alot better, and that should have been. I think I'm like the lousiest sec 4 on earth, and I still have loads to learn. Thank god for Ms Leong, or I think I'll be like screwed up. Yea, and since PY is my life right now, I think I should start practicing alot harder. As it stands I'm probably the worst there already. So I'm going to practice right after I finish this post.

If you all don't already know, we got a silver. Got a couple of messages from people which cheered me up though, and I couldnt possibly get myself to be sad after that. Regrets, maybe. But I'm not going to let that make me sad. Besides, with my fellow bandmates all around me, and such supportive friends who don't want to see me sad, its not possible to cry. I mean, so its a silver. SO WHAT? It doesnt change the fact that we're still a band, a family DEDICATED to the music we play, our only goal is to communicate our passion through the music itself. So hey band, DONT BE SAD! SILVER's the NEW GOLD! xD And we still rock. NEVER FORGET THE EXPERIENCE AFTER THE RESULTS. Though there were tears, yes. But have you ever seen the band so bonded? For me, that was the best part of SYF. Its so heartening to see everyone cheering for each other, for the band, the teachers and everyone who supported us in this. It was the same 2 years ago, after we got our first gold. But to see it happen even after we've gotten a silver, it was really unexpected. But heartening all the same. I love SC band and all the people who come with it- the sec 4s, the teachers, the WONDERFUL juniors who've worked so hard for this, and our seniors, whom without the support of, we wouldn't have gotten this far. (sry my english. braindead.)

I LOVE YOU SC BAND!

oh and congrats to St Pats and AMK sec! GWH FTW!

April 06, 2007

In this perfect weather.

Fly away on my Zephyr
I feel it more then ever
And in this perfect weather
We'll find a place together
In the water where the scent of my emotion
All the world will pass me by
Fly away on my Zephyr
We'll find a place together

Its raining. (or not. I think it just stopped.)

Went to Max's house after sectionals yesterday. He was damn random, kept saying that he was a laptop. >.< Then he came my house after that! Haha, but all he did was play guitar for awhile and play a game of DotA. Then he helped me fix my resolution for wc3! Omg i swear everything looks damn nice now. It used to be like shit. Just that I didn't know how to fix it. THANKS! xDDD

Today's Good friday. I'm fasting. Its 3 something. And I'm dying of hunger. AHH. Nvm mar. YOU CAN DO IT! I was playing comp in the morning, then my mum scolded me. "WHY ARE YOU ENJOYING YOURSELF!" So I decided to do work. I did my CFC worksheet and the transformation one. Half of the transformation one's blank cuz i have no idea how to do it.

Adriel told me alot of weird stuff... o.O

Can't wait for Sunday!! PY! <3

Currently addicted to RHCP Live in Hyde Park. I've been listening to it ever since my mum scolded me at around 11+. So that makes it.. around four hours? Haha. :D

BAND BAND BAND. Y'think we can get a Gold this year? Honestly, I don't know, but I'd rather believe that we'll get it. (I hope I'm not living in denial here.) A little over five days more, and its JUDGEMENT TIME. Sc-bandits, if you're reading this, put in your best shot, because we've only got this one chance to prove ourselves. So while we're up there, lets make the stage ours, and let everyone in that hall know that WE DESERVE THAT GOLD for the wonderful MUSIC we've made! We've been through 5 months of preparation for this, lets not let that go to waste yea? ((((:

March 28, 2007

How beautiful a sound can be.

MUSIC NEWS!
1. I'm totally addicted to West Side Story songs now.

And suddenly I've found how wonderful a sound can be.
Maria!
Say it loud and there's music playing;
Say it soft and it's almost like praying.
Maria,
I'll never stop saying: "Maria!"

Spent the whole of yesterday night listening to it. Think I must have repeated it like 30 times over or something. BUT IT STILL ROCKS! :D

2. And I learnt a new song on piano today! Fur Elise! lol. But quite cool eh, I learnt it in one day! xD Next, I'm going to work on Moonlight Sonata, unless anyone has anything else to suggest that's not too hard. Classical please, I don't want to end up playing anymore chinese songs. 2 is enough for me.

3. I bought my new mouthpiece! B40lyre! ( thus leading to my empty wallet :(((((( ) Actually I don't find much difference. Maybe I haven't really been playing properly. But yea, its a nice change from that 5RV I had previously. I want thinner Zonda reeds :( I do wish I wasn't so broke.

LIFE NEWS!

1. Biology test yesterday was OMGWTFDIE. 'Nuff said.

2. Went out with Lester, Adam and Kahwei yesterday to watch Mr Bean's Holiday. Seriously the lamest show ever. I'm not going to add any spoilers for you guys. But yea I guess TMNT would probably be better than Mr Bean's Holiday, I HOPE. But no, the movie wasn't the highlight of yesterday. It was.... *drumroll*.... THE SAKAE SUSHI BUFFET! I don't usually eat alot, but I guess the rest of them can eat. KW did the ordering for us, with the occasional chipping in of "lets order this!" or "lets order that!" from the 3 of us. Yeah and I think in total we ordered like 20 plates of gyoza? My first time actually eating gyoza. We ordered tofu too, but then no one wanted to finish it. So i played scissors paper stone with lester, and I lost 3 times in a row >.< So i had to eat 3 pieces of tofu. Zzz. And that was when I was already super full.

Then there was still alot of extra food, so we played 7-up. You know that game where you go in a circle and each person says a number, then when the number has 7 inside it or is a multiple of 7, you have to say up. So its like : 1,2,3,4,5,6,up,8,9,10,11,12,13,up,15 etc... Yea. So we went up to a hundred and back down, and all the food still wasn't gone. But guess who ate the most. LESTER YOUNG JHUI HSIEN! (Hah I know how to spell your name perfectly now xD ) In total I think he ate like 3 plates or more of food during the time when we were playing. Every alternate round he would get something wrong and we would be like "HAH! EAT!" Lol. Poor guy. Go improve your maths then we go eat sakae buffet again. haha. Then next one to be eating 3 plates will be me. Lol.

3. I FINISHED MY CHINESE MARCH HOLIDAY!!!!!! Omg I'm so relieved. YAY MAR YAY MAR YAY MAR!!

K tune in to news another time. It is now 10pm, and time for another TV show. (which im not gna watch).

March 24, 2007

i love you.

Haven't posted in a long time.

Got A1s for both a math & e math tests, yay me.

Now defragmenting my comp. Max sent me this defragmenting tool and some windows care thing. I dont know what it does but i hope its good.

I dont know why, but a great sadness has come over me,

I only feel like crying.

& now even max isnt replying.

March 15, 2007

SC BAND, as one.

I know no one likes the feeling of being critisized.
No one likes the feeling of being put down because they did something wrong.
I'm not an exception.
I hate people critisizing me.
But I think its necessary anyway.


Today, we had a band exchange with Nanyang, RI, Marsiling and SJI. It was held at SJI, and I didn't see why we had to take a bus all the way there since its like, practically next door. So we sat in the audi and listened to Nanyang play first. I SAW JUDY I SAW JUDY! Haha. Haven't seen her in eons. Anyway, they were pretty good, compared to us >.< RI was like whoaaaa. And the rest.. we didnt really get to listen. So then we were all SO HAPPY to see Mr Yap because we were so worried that he couldn't come. So we greeted him really loudly. (: We went on stage not knowing how we would do, with no sense of confidence at all. I went up just praying we wouldn't screw up, as a band, as a section, and as an individual. Mr Yap warmed us up on stage, but got really frustrated because we really weren't performing up to standard. That got us really depressed. But hey, no fear. Just get this over and done with, and we can proceed to practising for what we're aiming for, that GOLD.

HOWEVER...
During the performance, intonation was so off. I don't know why, I SWEAR I TUNED! Well I wasn't the only one. =/ Bad excuse, I know. Our whole band screwed up, in the end. And we all went off stage depressed. Debrief from all the teachers, and nothing good was said. Practice might be extended to Saturdays, too. In a way, I think its good. One month to SYF, and we still sound like um. NOT what a gold band should sound like.

So today should be a learning point for us all.

K whatever. I cant think of anything else, got distracted cos ppl talking to me in MSN. Another time.

March 13, 2007

BAND CAMP! :D

OMG WTF? who did my Heymath E-math assignment for me!! Today I signed in and wanted to submit the answers then WTF DO LIAO. Then i look at the date, 12 March. I wasn't at home the whole day on 12 March la WHAT THE HELL. That person only got 19/20 for me somemore. THE QUESTION TT PERSON GOT WRONG I GOT CORRECT. make me print out and do for nothing. =.=" then why don't want to do my A maths one for me huh? :(

On a lighter note, I just got back from BAND CAMP! :D Yay i love my section <33 I was so retarded during the camp i cant believe it. I think I was too high. But yea, I think we bonded alot during the camp. And I learnt something new - THAT CHERYL HO IS PRO AT POLAR BEAR xD. haha. Our band is progessing slowly but surely, and WE MUST ALL AIM FOR THAT GOLD PEOPLE! Don't care how hard it may be, how long it takes, but WE WILL GET THERE! :D Clarinets - PRACTISE YOUR RUNNING NOTES! WE MUST MAKE IT PERFECT SO THAT MR YAP CANT BLAME US~ :D

K i gtg do work now. TOODLE DOO!

March 09, 2007

I miss magic.

I started out happy today.

Listening to Hana Kimi soundtrack. I was at first estatic, then emotional, well, then the tears started flowing. One reason was because dear brought up the topic of Magic, and the songs (esp zhuan shu tian shi) didn't help the fact that I miss him so much. I still can't face the fact that I won't see him ever again. I can't believe I don't even have a picture of him as a keepsake.

How he always greeted me so warmly whenever I went over - That was one of the things i loved about him. Now, I can't imagine what things would be like, how the house would always be so quiet without him. I haven't gone over yet since then, but a part of me doesn't want to. I'm just scared that the memories will all come flooding back.

He may not be my best friend, but I miss him all the same.