Yes, I should be doing my hw, I know. But, kinda taking a break. Break from what, I wonder.I haven't really done anything so far. So I was just thinking, should I change my blogskin again? I'm apparently not contented with this one. Though I think the strawberries in the pic look good enough to eat! Tell me if that's not true.
Well anyway, these few days have been one of the most[ummm...] hectic? [Is that the word?]It's just that I think the stress of the past few weeks have started taking it's toll, and I think the late nights are not really paying off either, since I'm still doing so badly in all my CTs. I'm trying to do something about it, but as you can see, I'm not really [self-]disciplined enough. Otherwise, I wouldn't be BLOGGING in the first place. I think I need tuition for practically every subject. My grades have been slipping, and the best thing is, it's only April! I wonder what would happen if I carried on like this until the end of the year. It would probably be suicide.
I'm really excited about this Sunday though.
[10 Apr.]
`))Church - Entrance Ritual [DO NOT ASK ME WHAT IT IS ABOUT. I have no idea myself. =X]
-Catechism (: [hooooray. hah.]
`))Taekwondo Grading - brown2 [i can't believe it. I'm finally catching up with my sister. I hope she'll stall for another 3 months after this grading. Then I will be able to take brown1 exam BEFORE her and become junior black belt first! WAHAHAH. I doubt that will happen, because chief will ask me to teach her her pattern. And SHE is the one who knows the pattern. She's brown1 already, just that she's not going for this grading. HAH. She has been stalling at brown1 for half a year already. Let's hope she stays there. X) I'm so evil.]
`)) ShuFang's Birthday! [Happy birthday!]
xoxo-mar
April 07, 2005
March 31, 2005
Thursday
`Hello!!
`haha. sorry. i may seem a little crazy right now, but i'm just really really really happy and really really really excited. yepp.
`What I'm excited/happy about:
1)No more chinese tuition! NO MORE CHINESE TUITION!!!!!!!haha sorry. I'm just so happy.
2)I have someone to go with me to RJC concert!! haha.
3)There is no history test next week!
4)There is no school tmr, just sports day! haha. I can go home and practise my clarinet all i want! (:
`haha i feel so retarded. But i just can't help it.lol.
`haha. sorry. i may seem a little crazy right now, but i'm just really really really happy and really really really excited. yepp.
`What I'm excited/happy about:
1)No more chinese tuition! NO MORE CHINESE TUITION!!!!!!!haha sorry. I'm just so happy.
2)I have someone to go with me to RJC concert!! haha.
3)There is no history test next week!
4)There is no school tmr, just sports day! haha. I can go home and practise my clarinet all i want! (:
`haha i feel so retarded. But i just can't help it.lol.
March 27, 2005
Sunday2
Forgive my last post. I just HAD to post that. some people were irritating me too much. Oh well. Just came back to wish those people having lit and chinese tests on tuesday good luck. And look! Wonderful! I'm having an extra math test during tuition!
xoxo-marissa
xoxo-marissa
Sunday
`Sometimes i wonder, just how many people in this world out there hate me. Kinda hard to think of the positive side of that sometimes, y'know?
Well, to tell you the truth, i don't of myself as all that great. You think you're great? I don't freaking care. Y'know, sometimes people tell me not to care what people think, so sometimes i don't care, and sometimes i do. But I think the most despicable act is to let that person know that you don't like the way they are by your actions. I mean, what the hell, you could just tell me straight out. For example, you could say,"Hey marissa, i think you're _______________. Could you tone it down a little?" What the hell, I could take a little constructive criticism. What do you think of me as? An ass with no brains? Perhaps so, my friend, if i could call you that. Like all people, I have a limit. You irritate me too much, i break down and i shout. You talk to me in that kind of tone, i get pissed. And well, you won't wanna know what happens next. I ain't gonna condone your crap. I try to be nice to you, and I'm not expecting anything much in return, JUST A LITTLE COMMON COURTESY. Couldn't you just give me that? I think my life is screwed up enough without you in it, so don't mess it up even more for me yeah? You don't like me, TELL ME. I won't hate you for it. PROMISE. If you don't have the courage to do that, then what can I do mann, it's your life. You can continue hating me for the rest of your life for all I care, just don't let it show in front of me. And those people whom I already know don't like me, gawd don't act like you like me.[in a platonic way, of course] It makes me sick, y'know. Ugh. I hate myself. I hate the way I've been born to be. Because apparently, some people don't like it. And I like to please people, who doesn't? Yes, and cut the lecture. Life isn't fair, I KNOW THAT BY NOW.
`Let me list you some of the things that I think of myself as, or some people think of me as:
1. A snobbish know-it-all.
2. A poser.[ ohho. i know who thinks i'm this. It's so obvious.]
3. A despo.
4. A show-off.
5. A bitch.
6. A freak.
7. A hopeless socialiser.
`I'm sure there's more to the list. So give me some more and I'll add on to it yeahh? How fun.
`Right now the only close friend I have is Susannah. I've not forgotten bout the rest of you. I just can't confide in you. You won't understand me okay?
` SIGH.
Well, to tell you the truth, i don't of myself as all that great. You think you're great? I don't freaking care. Y'know, sometimes people tell me not to care what people think, so sometimes i don't care, and sometimes i do. But I think the most despicable act is to let that person know that you don't like the way they are by your actions. I mean, what the hell, you could just tell me straight out. For example, you could say,"Hey marissa, i think you're _______________. Could you tone it down a little?" What the hell, I could take a little constructive criticism. What do you think of me as? An ass with no brains? Perhaps so, my friend, if i could call you that. Like all people, I have a limit. You irritate me too much, i break down and i shout. You talk to me in that kind of tone, i get pissed. And well, you won't wanna know what happens next. I ain't gonna condone your crap. I try to be nice to you, and I'm not expecting anything much in return, JUST A LITTLE COMMON COURTESY. Couldn't you just give me that? I think my life is screwed up enough without you in it, so don't mess it up even more for me yeah? You don't like me, TELL ME. I won't hate you for it. PROMISE. If you don't have the courage to do that, then what can I do mann, it's your life. You can continue hating me for the rest of your life for all I care, just don't let it show in front of me. And those people whom I already know don't like me, gawd don't act like you like me.[in a platonic way, of course] It makes me sick, y'know. Ugh. I hate myself. I hate the way I've been born to be. Because apparently, some people don't like it. And I like to please people, who doesn't? Yes, and cut the lecture. Life isn't fair, I KNOW THAT BY NOW.
`Let me list you some of the things that I think of myself as, or some people think of me as:
1. A snobbish know-it-all.
2. A poser.[ ohho. i know who thinks i'm this. It's so obvious.]
3. A despo.
4. A show-off.
5. A bitch.
6. A freak.
7. A hopeless socialiser.
`I'm sure there's more to the list. So give me some more and I'll add on to it yeahh? How fun.
`Right now the only close friend I have is Susannah. I've not forgotten bout the rest of you. I just can't confide in you. You won't understand me okay?
` SIGH.
March 26, 2005
sunday
hello.
haha you have to DL the video. Karen recommended to me..lol. Russell Peters is a damn good comedian. but abit racist though..
http://www.toastedbrownie.com/2005/01/russell-peters.html
xoxo-marissa
haha you have to DL the video. Karen recommended to me..lol. Russell Peters is a damn good comedian. but abit racist though..
http://www.toastedbrownie.com/2005/01/russell-peters.html
xoxo-marissa
March 25, 2005
March 24, 2005
Thursday
Only 21 days to SYF.
boredd. will be hardworking tmr until Easter. i'm gonna try my best anw. I HAVE to study for chinese. I don't wanna fail. I can't be bothered for Lit.. just read through and rmb can le. hahh.
Who has read 'the old man and the sea' by Earnest Hemmingway? Tell me what it's about. lol. I wanna know before i read it. heh.
lalalaaa. 15 mins more. i'm gonna go back to class & eat something before recess ends. and hopefully i can complete my zuo wen corrections and comprehension. Then I'll have no hw! so far la.. day's not over yet, disappointingly. lol. is there such a word? -shrugs-.
kk i'm going now. tata!
xoxo-marissa
boredd. will be hardworking tmr until Easter. i'm gonna try my best anw. I HAVE to study for chinese. I don't wanna fail. I can't be bothered for Lit.. just read through and rmb can le. hahh.
Who has read 'the old man and the sea' by Earnest Hemmingway? Tell me what it's about. lol. I wanna know before i read it. heh.
lalalaaa. 15 mins more. i'm gonna go back to class & eat something before recess ends. and hopefully i can complete my zuo wen corrections and comprehension. Then I'll have no hw! so far la.. day's not over yet, disappointingly. lol. is there such a word? -shrugs-.
kk i'm going now. tata!
xoxo-marissa
March 21, 2005
monday
lol.. somehow it seems i always blog on mondays and tuesdays. weird. hmms. haha. i told tao that i'd update soon, so here i am! haha. Look tao... i'm UPDATING! lol. listening to that jap anime song we're using for OM now.. no idea how to sing it though.. i dun have the lyrics.. and TIFFANY is not online now. hmph. she's supposed to send me the lyrics.
I think i'm gonna blow with all the stress these few days. I'll be SO happy once OM is over. sigh. i'm sorta wondering now, why the hell is the font so big in my comp all of a sudden. I'm insulted. Even the computer thinks i'm blind. >.< Ok. time to go study for geog and science now. Wish me good luck! Oh and best of luck to all ppl taking geog and science test tmr.. Esp to 2GY, may we all do better for science this time round! (: hahh.
xoxo-marissa
I think i'm gonna blow with all the stress these few days. I'll be SO happy once OM is over. sigh. i'm sorta wondering now, why the hell is the font so big in my comp all of a sudden. I'm insulted. Even the computer thinks i'm blind. >.< Ok. time to go study for geog and science now. Wish me good luck! Oh and best of luck to all ppl taking geog and science test tmr.. Esp to 2GY, may we all do better for science this time round! (: hahh.
xoxo-marissa
March 15, 2005
tuesday
; - listening to NSB Millenium 2000 [Tokyo Kosei Wind Orchestra]
`Boo.
y'know. I kinda feel like crying now. No idea why though.. maybe it's the music I'm listening to. Or MAYBE it's the fact that I have so much on my mind right now. -shrugs- sometimes its nice to have someone to talk to. and sometimes it's not. half the time it's the wrong person.
i don't feel like blogging anymore. maybe later eh?
xoxo-marissa
`Boo.
y'know. I kinda feel like crying now. No idea why though.. maybe it's the music I'm listening to. Or MAYBE it's the fact that I have so much on my mind right now. -shrugs- sometimes its nice to have someone to talk to. and sometimes it's not. half the time it's the wrong person.
i don't feel like blogging anymore. maybe later eh?
xoxo-marissa
March 09, 2005
wednesday
bored bored bored bored and more bored.
whoosh. boredom. and pure unadulterated nonsense. from me of course! who else >.<
guess where i am. in the library, duh-uh, like i always am at recess. i get to borrow 3 books now. yippeee. =)
okayys. i have nothing to type. so i'm going now. byeee.
xoxo-marissa
whoosh. boredom. and pure unadulterated nonsense. from me of course! who else >.<
guess where i am. in the library, duh-uh, like i always am at recess. i get to borrow 3 books now. yippeee. =)
okayys. i have nothing to type. so i'm going now. byeee.
xoxo-marissa
March 08, 2005
tuesday
boo. i'm back. rarr.
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeks. i fell asleep and forgot to go tuition. how nice >.< now i won't know what i missed and when the next lesson is. what the hell la. oh well.
today was damn bullshit la. we stayed back until so damn late for some chinese crap which was really stupid. and didn't help me at all.. because i had no idea what they were talking about. eeeek. there's a giant ant on the bed. i better go before it bites me...
xoxo-marissa
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeks. i fell asleep and forgot to go tuition. how nice >.< now i won't know what i missed and when the next lesson is. what the hell la. oh well.
today was damn bullshit la. we stayed back until so damn late for some chinese crap which was really stupid. and didn't help me at all.. because i had no idea what they were talking about. eeeek. there's a giant ant on the bed. i better go before it bites me...
xoxo-marissa
March 07, 2005
monday
of what hope is left inside me
boo. i shall make this a short entry to make up for that huge gap between the entry i posted earlier today and the previous one, which was like one or two weeks ago. 3 cheers for me =) no idea why though.
i haven't really studied history, just typed out notes. i'm gonna print it out soon. then i'll really get down to studying. It's eleven already. Guess who's gonna be dead for hist test tmr? ME. who? ME. riight. and i haven't even touched math. AND lit. AND the stupid chinese zuo wen thing which i'm supposed to copy out. ain't I guai. =X oh well. i'm gonna take a bath now so i can keep awake into the night to finish mugging for history. I don't wanna fail! And I won't. sometimes it pays to have confidence and determination. so i hope that my salary is high. ohh like whatever. i'm underestimating my lameness.
uh-huh. I am SO going to the Barker Carnival. I'm going there to play LAN. hahh. then later we'll go for HCJC concert. wheeee. =) lol. i just realised i forgot to bring my clarinet back. 4 days without clarinet(or is it 3).. i'm gonna suffer. I miss my clarinet already. boohoo.
adventure camp rocks!
xoxo-marissa
monday
of what hope is left inside me
boo. i shall make this a short entry to make up for that huge gap between the entry i posted earlier today and the previous one, which was like one or two weeks ago. 3 cheers for me =) no idea why though.
i haven't really studied history, just typed out notes. i'm gonna print it out soon. then i'll really get down to studying. It's eleven already. Guess who's gonna be dead for hist test tmr? ME. who? ME. riight. and i haven't even touched math. AND lit. AND the stupid chinese zuo wen thing which i'm supposed to copy out. ain't I guai. =X oh well. i'm gonna take a bath now so i can keep awake into the night to finish mugging for history. I don't wanna fail! And I won't. sometimes it pays to have confidence and determination. so i hope that my salary is high. ohh like whatever. i'm underestimating my lameness.
uh-huh. I am SO going to the Barker Carnival. I'm going there to play LAN. hahh. then later we'll go for HCJC concert. wheeee. =) lol. i just realised i forgot to bring my clarinet back. 4 days without clarinet(or is it 3).. i'm gonna suffer. I miss my clarinet already. boohoo.
adventure camp rocks!
xoxo-marissa
monday
heyyho. :] i think that's a retarded looking smiley. don't ask.
well anyway.. i shall ask u folks to ignore my last entry.. anyone would be able to tell that i was pissed with someone. and i've had lots of mood swings lately, so bear with me ya? if you can't then don't read my entries..i didn't ask you to.
I did lots of ehhm... how do i say this.. "confessing" yesterday. more than i've ever done in my whole life. so i'm abit overwhelmed now. and quite high too. haha. games are so funn =) riiight. i'm typing crap. we have history test and math test tmr, both for which i am soooo dead. they are like my 2nd and 3rd worst subjects, first being chinese, duh-uh.
whooo. i think the library lost the book that i returned. and now i can't borrow. damn. someone teach me not so swear so much. i want to be guai. =( but i think that will never happen. i seem to have a knack for getting into trouble.
my comp is screwed. there is no space left to patch maple. 2mb of space left!! can you believe it? and the only programs that are mine inside the com are maple and MSN. all the rest are my mum's music DL programs. like wadde hell. and she says that maple is taking up too much space. is 0.88mb too much space? that's like hell little la. what's wrong with her. bleahh.
okayys. i need to go now. 5 mins before recess ends. toooooodles! =)
xoxo-marissa
well anyway.. i shall ask u folks to ignore my last entry.. anyone would be able to tell that i was pissed with someone. and i've had lots of mood swings lately, so bear with me ya? if you can't then don't read my entries..i didn't ask you to.
I did lots of ehhm... how do i say this.. "confessing" yesterday. more than i've ever done in my whole life. so i'm abit overwhelmed now. and quite high too. haha. games are so funn =) riiight. i'm typing crap. we have history test and math test tmr, both for which i am soooo dead. they are like my 2nd and 3rd worst subjects, first being chinese, duh-uh.
whooo. i think the library lost the book that i returned. and now i can't borrow. damn. someone teach me not so swear so much. i want to be guai. =( but i think that will never happen. i seem to have a knack for getting into trouble.
my comp is screwed. there is no space left to patch maple. 2mb of space left!! can you believe it? and the only programs that are mine inside the com are maple and MSN. all the rest are my mum's music DL programs. like wadde hell. and she says that maple is taking up too much space. is 0.88mb too much space? that's like hell little la. what's wrong with her. bleahh.
okayys. i need to go now. 5 mins before recess ends. toooooodles! =)
xoxo-marissa
February 21, 2005
monday
I HATE SC. ppl here are so bitchy. esp 3 certaing ppl, no 4 actually. i am so changing school next year. i have a feeling no one's gonna miss me. but do I care? NO. why the effing hell wld they care anw? 2GY. hmmm. screwed class. 1SE. rocks. but other than that, SC sucks. i mean like in band, it's not like VERY bad and stuff, but i feel i can't learn anything. then i get very super pissed at myself. and yea.. blah blah things start to happen. like my friend in montfort is so super much much much better than me. cause he's close to his seniors. and they actually HELP him. and like they give him scores and stuff. he's nice. and pro at playing the clarinet. unlike me. SO unlike me. oh well. life is never fair. so i'm gonna work hard this yr, and maybe go to TJC or something. if i stay in SC one more year, i think i'm gonna commit suicide.
February 19, 2005
saturday
hohoho.
my sis just said the swear word. she's gonna die. TOO BAD.
oh well. lol.
y'know, i'm feeling very very bad now. bleahh.
hey, i'm really really sorry k.i just don't think we're meant to be together and stuff, though you're like really really nice. i'm scared to face you now. after one week, i feel like i'd just die of embarrassment. Oh yea, i still haven't done that passage that we're supposed to choose frm the bible. hoho. too bad. i'll just flip to one page and crap something up i guess. hope you did it. doubt so though. bleahh.
right. i did super badly for science. i don't dare to show my mum. she'll cut off my head. damn. how did liney get so high?!? 32, like HELLO?? i got like 10 marks less than that. so damn bloody crappy.
ooooh!! y'know angela, aud, tiff and amelia came to my house for OM today.. hahaha. so cool. we got really distracted and Amelia got irritated. hoho. =)
aah wells. today's blog post has been super wu liao. i shan't say no more.
xoxo-marissa
my sis just said the swear word. she's gonna die. TOO BAD.
oh well. lol.
y'know, i'm feeling very very bad now. bleahh.
hey, i'm really really sorry k.i just don't think we're meant to be together and stuff, though you're like really really nice. i'm scared to face you now. after one week, i feel like i'd just die of embarrassment. Oh yea, i still haven't done that passage that we're supposed to choose frm the bible. hoho. too bad. i'll just flip to one page and crap something up i guess. hope you did it. doubt so though. bleahh.
right. i did super badly for science. i don't dare to show my mum. she'll cut off my head. damn. how did liney get so high?!? 32, like HELLO?? i got like 10 marks less than that. so damn bloody crappy.
ooooh!! y'know angela, aud, tiff and amelia came to my house for OM today.. hahaha. so cool. we got really distracted and Amelia got irritated. hoho. =)
aah wells. today's blog post has been super wu liao. i shan't say no more.
xoxo-marissa
February 14, 2005
Happy Val'z Day =)
bleahhh. i still love you. why today? couldn't it just be ytd? or are you just trying to make my valentines day more memorable than it already is? no hard feelings, but i just can't help feeling sad. i miss you lots. i'm not gonna cry, because i'm strong inside. i just wish you were there. but i understand. you're like the sweetest guy ever. i just hope you and rachelle get back together again. =) yeah so like, good luck. if you ever need anything, i'm still here.
okay.. cannot stand it anymore. feelings taking over. bleahh. -screams- maroon 5 on TV! ahhhh. lol. the grammy's rockk. haha. i'm feeling so heartless now.. ehhh. heartless? i mean heartbroken. haha. well, heartless too. but you don't need to know why. this is stupid.. i'm getting more and more sad each time i think abt it. for all you know i might just cry myself to sleep. haha. no i'm just joking. lol. ohkay. i have to do my literature now. but for the last time...
i love you.
it doesn't mean anything now. there's nothing i can do.
xoxo-marissa
bleahhh. i still love you. why today? couldn't it just be ytd? or are you just trying to make my valentines day more memorable than it already is? no hard feelings, but i just can't help feeling sad. i miss you lots. i'm not gonna cry, because i'm strong inside. i just wish you were there. but i understand. you're like the sweetest guy ever. i just hope you and rachelle get back together again. =) yeah so like, good luck. if you ever need anything, i'm still here.
okay.. cannot stand it anymore. feelings taking over. bleahh. -screams- maroon 5 on TV! ahhhh. lol. the grammy's rockk. haha. i'm feeling so heartless now.. ehhh. heartless? i mean heartbroken. haha. well, heartless too. but you don't need to know why. this is stupid.. i'm getting more and more sad each time i think abt it. for all you know i might just cry myself to sleep. haha. no i'm just joking. lol. ohkay. i have to do my literature now. but for the last time...
i love you.
it doesn't mean anything now. there's nothing i can do.
xoxo-marissa
February 05, 2005
HEYY.
I'M ANGRY TODAY
ANGRY AND FRUSTRATED.
BECAUSE OF YESTERDAY
WHICH WAS SO DAMN SCREWED.
I SCREWED UP IN BAND
YESTERDAY
LOTS OF TIMES.
I FEEL RIDICULOUSLY FOOLISH NOW.
AND STUPID TOO.
WHY?
BECAUSE I HAD TO BE
STUPID
AND
DUMB
THE WHOLE OF YESTERDAY.
EXCEPT IN THE NIGHT
WHERE I WAS NOT SO RIDICULOUSLY
STUPID
AND
DUMB.
SO NOW,
I'M
STUPIDLY
AND
DUMBLY
VENTING MY ANGER AND FRUSTRATION HERE.
IN A
STUPID
AND
DUMB WAY,
LIKE ALL
STUPID
AND
DUMB
PEOPLE DO >.<
AND I NEARLY CHOKED ON WATER
THREE TIMES
IN THE PAST 15 MINUTES.
I MUST BE FATED.
AND THERE I GO,
DRINKING WATER AGAIN.
YOU WOULD THINK I'D HAVE LEARNT MY LESSON BY NOW,
BUT WEIRDLY,
I HAVE NOT.
SO NOW,
I'M ANGRY, FRUSTRATED AND WEIRD.
THREE WORDS TO DESCRIBE MY STUPID AND DUMB LIFE,
DON'T YOU THINK?
DON'T TALK TO ME RIGHT NOW.
WHEN I'M VENTING MY ANGER
AND YOU TALK TO ME
I'D NOT TREAT YOU IN A VERY NICE WAY,
LIKE I USUALLY DO. *COUGH*
I WANT THE EARTH TO OPEN UP AND SWALLOW ME.
BUT NOT THE EARTH UNDER THE OCEAN.
NO MORE TSUNAMIS PLEASE.
I THINK THE WORLD HAS HAD ENOUGH OF THOSE FOR THE REST OF IT'S LIFETIME.
WAIT A SECOND.
WHAT DO I CARE ANYWAY?
I HATE MYSELF.
BUT I LOVE
MY FAMILY - WHO'S BEEN BY MY SIDE SINCE I CAME INTO THIS WORLD( EXCEPT MY SISTER, WHO'S BEEN BY MY SIDE 4 YEARS AFTER I CAME INTO THIS WORLD.)
MY FRIENDS - WHO HAVE BEEN THERE FOR ME IN TIMES LIKE THIS, AND HAVE SHARED HAPPY TIMES WITH ME, FOR WHICH I WILL ALWAYS TREASURE.
MY ENEMIES - WHO DESERVE TO BE LOVED. FOR ALL I KNOW, THEY HATE ME. BUT I WILL NOT HATE THEM BACK, FOR THAT DOES NOT MAKE THEM LIKE ME MORE, DOES IT?
NATURE - WHICH HAS CALMED ME DOWN WITH IT'S BEAUTIFUL ARCHITECTURE.
AND LASTLY,
GOD - THE CREATOR OF ALL THINGS. WHO HAS CREATED EVERYTHING THAT I LOVE ON EARTH: MY FAMILY, MY FRIENDS, MY ENEMIES, AND MOST OF ALL, NATURE. I AM GRATEFUL FOR ALL THESE THINGS, AND MORE.
LOOK.
I'M NOT ANGRY ANYMORE.
I APPRECIATE THINGS AROUND ME.
I DO NOT TAKE THEM FOR GRANTED.
I LOVE YOU.
xoxo-marissa
I'M ANGRY TODAY
ANGRY AND FRUSTRATED.
BECAUSE OF YESTERDAY
WHICH WAS SO DAMN SCREWED.
I SCREWED UP IN BAND
YESTERDAY
LOTS OF TIMES.
I FEEL RIDICULOUSLY FOOLISH NOW.
AND STUPID TOO.
WHY?
BECAUSE I HAD TO BE
STUPID
AND
DUMB
THE WHOLE OF YESTERDAY.
EXCEPT IN THE NIGHT
WHERE I WAS NOT SO RIDICULOUSLY
STUPID
AND
DUMB.
SO NOW,
I'M
STUPIDLY
AND
DUMBLY
VENTING MY ANGER AND FRUSTRATION HERE.
IN A
STUPID
AND
DUMB WAY,
LIKE ALL
STUPID
AND
DUMB
PEOPLE DO >.<
AND I NEARLY CHOKED ON WATER
THREE TIMES
IN THE PAST 15 MINUTES.
I MUST BE FATED.
AND THERE I GO,
DRINKING WATER AGAIN.
YOU WOULD THINK I'D HAVE LEARNT MY LESSON BY NOW,
BUT WEIRDLY,
I HAVE NOT.
SO NOW,
I'M ANGRY, FRUSTRATED AND WEIRD.
THREE WORDS TO DESCRIBE MY STUPID AND DUMB LIFE,
DON'T YOU THINK?
DON'T TALK TO ME RIGHT NOW.
WHEN I'M VENTING MY ANGER
AND YOU TALK TO ME
I'D NOT TREAT YOU IN A VERY NICE WAY,
LIKE I USUALLY DO. *COUGH*
I WANT THE EARTH TO OPEN UP AND SWALLOW ME.
BUT NOT THE EARTH UNDER THE OCEAN.
NO MORE TSUNAMIS PLEASE.
I THINK THE WORLD HAS HAD ENOUGH OF THOSE FOR THE REST OF IT'S LIFETIME.
WAIT A SECOND.
WHAT DO I CARE ANYWAY?
I HATE MYSELF.
BUT I LOVE
MY FAMILY - WHO'S BEEN BY MY SIDE SINCE I CAME INTO THIS WORLD( EXCEPT MY SISTER, WHO'S BEEN BY MY SIDE 4 YEARS AFTER I CAME INTO THIS WORLD.)
MY FRIENDS - WHO HAVE BEEN THERE FOR ME IN TIMES LIKE THIS, AND HAVE SHARED HAPPY TIMES WITH ME, FOR WHICH I WILL ALWAYS TREASURE.
MY ENEMIES - WHO DESERVE TO BE LOVED. FOR ALL I KNOW, THEY HATE ME. BUT I WILL NOT HATE THEM BACK, FOR THAT DOES NOT MAKE THEM LIKE ME MORE, DOES IT?
NATURE - WHICH HAS CALMED ME DOWN WITH IT'S BEAUTIFUL ARCHITECTURE.
AND LASTLY,
GOD - THE CREATOR OF ALL THINGS. WHO HAS CREATED EVERYTHING THAT I LOVE ON EARTH: MY FAMILY, MY FRIENDS, MY ENEMIES, AND MOST OF ALL, NATURE. I AM GRATEFUL FOR ALL THESE THINGS, AND MORE.
LOOK.
I'M NOT ANGRY ANYMORE.
I APPRECIATE THINGS AROUND ME.
I DO NOT TAKE THEM FOR GRANTED.
I LOVE YOU.
xoxo-marissa
February 02, 2005
Wednesday
`heyya! lol. today's been quite crappy, seeing that i just found out i screwed my math test.. >.<" lol.. tuition yesterday was sooo slack. teacher was damn blur. ahahaa. aah wells. lol. i have no reason to be happy today, and yet I am.. so weird, don't you think? -shrugs- dunno what's come over me today..
hehh. man u won yesterday. ( why am i saying 'heh'? i'm utterly disgusted w/ myself. ahahaaa.) nvm. arsenal will win EPL again next year..and Man Utd will not yah? =) hahaaa.
yay ms wee extended our lit essay deadline to friday. so nice right? hahaa. I pity the SE ppl.. haha. okayy.. i gtg write ppl testimonials now.. haha. ppl who want me to link them pls tell me.. or er.. remind me to change your link..or something. hahh.
xoxo-marissa
hehh. man u won yesterday. ( why am i saying 'heh'? i'm utterly disgusted w/ myself. ahahaaa.) nvm. arsenal will win EPL again next year..and Man Utd will not yah? =) hahaaa.
yay ms wee extended our lit essay deadline to friday. so nice right? hahaa. I pity the SE ppl.. haha. okayy.. i gtg write ppl testimonials now.. haha. ppl who want me to link them pls tell me.. or er.. remind me to change your link..or something. hahh.
xoxo-marissa
February 01, 2005
ehh. today screwed all my tests mann. hha. but then right next week no tests =). ahaa. in library now.. er.. amelia's sitting next to me being a guai kia and doing her hw.. lol. unlike me. i'm crapping here =X. Yamaha is stupid. went there yesterday.. wasted all my time.. everything no stock!! lol. but i signed up for the yamaha card thing..
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