^_^ Photo post again, because some of the photos here I was supposed to post up really long ago but forgot about them :x

Last bowling training, 20/5/09.

Vic, Jaslyn, Yujun and I went out for dinner after training at Vivocity rooftop (: 

Sushi + Gloria Jeans (: & lots of talking and slacking and camwhoring lols. Best night out I've had in a pretty long time (other thn with the py people, I haven't forgotten you guys!).

SAJC Recre Bowling Girls (:

♥

Supporting SAJC Bowling team at OCC, 7/5/09

HAHA okay. the pics below are all taken in OCC :x We went to support the bowling team during A divs and were bored waiting for the prize presentation to start. hahas. Had loads of fun (:

See all the white light? Angels (: LOL.

Anyway, I love you guys! ♥

HAHA i have pics to update, but need to sleep soon, so shall do that tomorrow :D

Chem SPA tomorrow. Getting it over and done with is all I'm waiting for! (:

And well since I'm here I shall do a little concert update to the non-existent readers haha.

24 MAY 2009 - SUNDAY
MUSIC FROM MOVIES AND MUSICALS

BY
Singapore Armed Forces Central Band

VENUE / TIME
Shaw Foundation Symphony Stage (Botanic Gardens), 6.00pm

ADMISSION
Free

CONDUCTORS
TBC

PROGRAMME
Beauty and the Beast
Indiana Jones: Raiders of the Lost Ark
Star Wars: The Phantom Menace
Silverado
March from '1941'
West Side Story
Cats

Courtesy of Bandfusion (:

cuz you'll always be my..

Lol. This will be a somewhat-mostly-food post, because for the past few days I've been doing exactly that :x People have been studying their asses off this holiday because the next week's going to be RIDDLED with tests, but I seriously cannot be bothered, and I'm not even guilty. Oops. Enjoying life here :x Mother's Day is srsly pwn. hahah.

ANYWAY... On thursday, after the bowling Adivs, Vic, Jaslyn and I went for dinner at North Point!

This is Teriyaki Chicken Pasta from Ishi Mura. Just decided to try it out, and it turned out to be not so bad, for "foodcourt" food anw. Or maybe I was just hungry :x The way they cooked it was particularly cool though. The guy just threw everything into this pan in succession, cream sauce, chicken and all, and cooked it altogether. And the fire was WHOA big. we were wondering how he managed to cook with such a big fire holding a pan with a metal handle without burning his hand. Maybe it wasn't metal after all...

Next, Mother's Day Dinner, just the four of us! At Ristorante De Parma in Serangoon Gardens (:

Pretty small place, with nice ambience and all. Best part, all pizzas at 12.90 each on Tuesdays! Dad says we'll be back more often LOL.

Grilled Salmon! Definitely the best dish of the day. I am not THAT BIG a fan of salmon, but this was pretty pwn. The meat was so soft and juicy and tender that... OH MAN I'm hungry again.

Pizza De Menzo, commonly known as the meat lover's pizza. Crust was rly thin and crispy, which

brought out the flavour. (:

Beef tenderloin. Nothing really special though, though the potatoes with the sauce was particularly nice :x heh.

Cappucino! From italy..? lol.

&so we brought mum home for dessert after that. 

Jelly Hearts! I have nothing to say, you just have to try it yourself and be WOWed by it.

Icecream, from awefullychocolate! Dark chocolate flavoured (: The box was really cool too, something like the chinese takeout boxes you see in movies. 

& the cake! If it looks small here you've got it all wrong. But it was REALLY GOOD, half mousse half sponge, and all of darkchocolate! If I've eaten the whole cake myself I'd have died of chocolate poisoning, surely. 

The next day, Mother's Day proper! Dinner no. 2 with the rest of the family at Mushroom Pot, Indoor Stadium. 

 
Monkey Head Mushrooms?! I tried them and they tasted like flour, what the hell. Felt so cheated after that.

Some mushroom salad. I only ate all the golden mushrooms :x 

Steamboat! Instead of mushrooms, we were spamming meat :x lol.  those mushrooms floating around had pork in them, so don't be fooled! Lol. Pretty good meal in the end, because steamboat is always so pwn. 

HA. This morning I woke up and came online. Well there's a pretty big gap betw the waking up and coming online, but not the point. I decided to see if I could find out the exact day I joined Philyouth, but to no avail. Instead, I found this!

<> Photo removed due to embarrassment by involved parties. LOL. < /Edit >

I decided to end off with this. Because I love my sister very much, even though she can be abit of a chatterbox and a twit at times. (:

♥

Meh.

WHOA. Totally overdosage on icecream. 

1/4 tub of raspberry ripple yesterday, and today, its another trip to B&J! (: 

My cravings are WAY over satisfied! (: Thanks guys. Appreciated! HAHAHA. LOVES.

Well, I didn't go to school today. Instead, I ended up going to watch the JC SYF Day 1! Came late, stuck outside cuz no ticket, wasted $20 bucks cabbing to RP, pissed. But hell, listening to extreme makeover from TJC in the afternoon session was OSM. No matter what they got. (: Saw Audrey today, and gave her a hugggg (: OMG, I suddenly miss SCGS band so much. Met Cheryl, Sylvia, Wenting and Wenhui also! (: Memories... (:

AT THIS HOUR, 11.29PM, there are ppl fixing my aircon. =.= goodness knows what they are doing since it isnt even spoilt, but WTH. I wanted to sleep early. )))))))):

Discrete Random Variable.

X: No. of days that mar falls asleep in class out of 5

X~B( 5, 0.4)

P(X = 0) = binompdf ( 5, 0.4, 0)

                = 0.07776

Thats a bloody small probability. Oh crap.

:x

I got bored in the Study Room today, so I ended up writing stuff in my diary.

Hence this. Lol. 

Ah, I've got to start transcribing Angel soon, or I'm never going to finish. ): HELP! SOMEONE!!

Mad World - Tears for Fears

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Goin' nowhere, goin' nowhere
Their tears are fillin' up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dyin'
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad world, mad world
Mad world, mad world

Children waitin' for the day they feel good
Happy birthday, happy birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sits and listen, sits and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson?
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dyin'
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad world, mad world
Mad world, mad world

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dyin'
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad world, mad world
Mad world, mad world
A raunchy young world
Mad world

& this is a really nice song, although I don't really like Adam Lambert. (:

I woke up this morning with a craving for ICECREAM! D: And I still haven't satisfied it ): Anyone want to go out for icecream this week? 

Meh ):

Destressing is a hell lot more fun than being stressed, thats for sure. 

[Emo bit.]

[ I need someone whom I can be comfortable sitting with in a quiet place, having HTHTs and reveling in each other's company. To trust someone enough to be emo together, laugh together, share secrets, that kinda thing. Because many too often holding that mask up is WAY TOO EXHAUSTING. & yeah, I'm tired. ): The point is to listen and be heard.

I'm sorry about yesterday, but I was too braindead to hold up that mask any longer. ]

[/Emo bit.]

17 again today (:

& met up with Lester at night for dinner, caught up abit.

He's going for camp tomorrow and I think I'm going to miss him!

A LITTLE BIT ONLY okay, not alot (: But still. Haha. 

You know sometimes its like holding a butterfly in your hands.

Its struggling to get out, but you resist.

Then it stops, stays still, and gives up altogether.

OR SO YOU THINK.

You open your hands to check on it, "Oh no, did I kill it?"

And it gracefully flies away, not looking back. 

It bears no grudges, no. 

But HELL its not coming back either.

And do you look back with regret, having fallen for its trick?

I say no. 

At least I had the chance to embrace nature the way it was meant to be. 

Free.

Well, would it be stupid to admit that I have no idea what I'm talking about? Heh. I duno what's wrong with me, but this week I'm finding it REALLY HARD to concentrate on my work. I really don't get it. Like, what's with all the distractions all of a sudden?! I'm trying to get over it, but unfortunately, as of now, the status still remains at trying. RETARDED. Mar should just stop thinking about piano righttttt? Lol today I dragged Joane to camp in the LT with me just cuz there was a piano there. Ah, but as usual. This probably is just a passing phase, as with all my other crap about learning this and that. BUT HOPEFULLY NOT!!!

Meh, I feel so emo. BUT I have no idea about what. So I guess I should just be happy la huh. Haha. Need more entertainment during school time ): No one to sms haha. Everyone's so busy! ): I know I should be paying attention... :x But.. okay I'm not going to argue. 

Simple things in life can be the hardest to appreciate.

K, been lagging behind quite a bit in terms of posting, but I'm getting quite lazy :x Quick update of pics for now..

B&J Free Cone Day! 

Met Alyssa there :D:D:D Lol, was pretty shocked to see her, and wuz queueing with my sister at that time.
And here's a pic with my sister. Apparently she eats icecream faster than me :x

So after B&J's, I headed down to SRJC for ROCKFEST, because Maxy was playing (:

Overall it was pretty okay, though the only performance I really enjoyed was his.. :x Adam was my saviour for the day, hanging out with me and keeping me company even though I felt like I was holding him back and stuff :x then again, appreciate the company! :D Couple'a pics after rockfest courtesy of Alton.

Joshua + Maxy, the two zai guitarists (:

MAXY! (: But damn, did you have to bend down? Now I look even shorter. =.=" Lol. You know its like those.. really tall guys when they take picture with little girls they always have to bend down.. its giving me that feel now :x 

K that was tuesday. I duno what I did the whole week but by thursday I was plain broke =.= Friday, bowling + tuition, nothing particularly interesting there. 

Saturday! Went with Adam and Maxy for Suki (((: No photos, but a satisfying meal it was! :D Lol. Caught up and stuff... Went home and stuff... Dinner at night was with max and family at Pete's place, where I drank one tiny glass of wine and regretted it BIG TIME. Ended up feeling sick all the way home. ): My alcohol tolerance is so bloody CMI and that sucks. Well at least I can never get drunk.

Sunday! Philyouth day! Lolz. Nothing much. Went for prac, sectionalz, dinner + jokez, ben&jerry's, homed. Fulfilling though, if nothing else, and I couldn't ask for more.

Monday = Monday blues. As usual =.= The feeling of waking up LATE on a monday is even worse. Actually was supposed to sleep at 11.30, but ended up HTHTing with my sister until around 12.30. So that was one hour of sleep gone, but well I guess it helped alot. hahas. Spent most of the lessons stoning, reading shopaholic (and finished it!!!) and thinking 'bout stuff.. , but all's well that ends well, I guess. At least I'm feeling alot better than I was last night. :x I'm home early today too! This means... I GET TO PRACTISE MY CLAR!!! FOR ONCE IN A BLOODY MILLION YEARS!!!!!  :D Which I am going to do now. (: 

When you're down and lost
And you need a helping hand
When you're down and lost
Along the way,
Oh, just tell yourself
Ah, I'll be okay.

Trust.

TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST 

I trust you. 

NEWS

oyeah.

I love the feeling that we can read each others minds (:

♥

And wth, i'm still darn happy. :D :D 

The longer the day drags on, the happier I get. 

I think I'm just going to die of happiness.

How can this be, when everyone around me is emo? 

This isn't right lols.

I just don't get how I can be so happy, when everything is going wrong. 

Maybe I appreciate the small little things that people say or do, and they're making my day.

I feel like I'm living in lalaland, and MAYBE I am! :D :D 

Lol I realised I've been sending "thanks babe" to alot of people today hahah. So unlike me, but yeah LOLZ. 

MEH, I realise I say this every week, but I love Philyouth! :D (lolz im like having moodswings)

HAPPYMARHAPPYMARHAPPYMARHAPPYMARHAPPYMARHAPPYMARHAPPYMAR!!! :D

Happy until I totally forgot I had an econs test tmr, well at least until Nadh smsed me about it and i finally remembered :x But aiya... I want to read my story book :x 

ROCKFEST + BEN&JERRYS ON TUESDAYYYYYYYYYY. :D:D:D:D 

♥

WHOA. 

How did this happen?

I feel as if I'm losing. 

Last week I was like the ultimate winner. 

This week, because of one tiny detail, i've plunged to one stage before rock bottom.

On a lighter note, went out with Adam for lunch today :D Finally had something to do on a Saturday! Well, at least until like 1. Had a great time talking about the randomest things haha. Yesyes, we shall go on our Suki outing sometime soon (: 

Cheers to more entertainment on Saturdays! HAHA. Everyone is always so busy, and I am always so free :x (on saturdays at least..) Went for Mass at Risen Christ after a REALLY UNPRODUCTIVE "study session" at tpy, of which I spent most of the 2 hours sleeping.. zzz. The choir there's pretty good though! (: Came home after that, and well here I am. Just been stoning at the comp the past few hours, and deciding whether I should go for an early morning run tmr. As usual, no one is free to eat breakfast with me ): Craving for that sliced fish soup! ): 

Philyouth tomorrow... No comments. I'd say I was looking forward to it, but er.. yeah. Not in the right state of mind.

I really hope you don't let your ego get ahead of you in this, because what we have is a pure friendship, which i never want to lose, but i can feel it wearing down slowly, and all i can do is to hold on with whatever i have left - close to nothing.

CHILL MAR.

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Adam - next week lah next week :D

ShiChun - LOL emo street! You live on Happy Avenue, I am the one living on Emo street. Look at my condition omg. ): But okay la. At least I'm still living~

AYAM PENYET!

HELLO WORLD! (:

I ATE AYAM PENYET TODAY :)))))))) So much for not eating it in school haha, just couldn't resist! I was so jumpy and excited the whole day just waiting to eat my ayam penyet hahah. And hey, as it turns out. OMG YUM. 

Yup. Lucky Plaza, 01-47 if i'm not wrong (:

Stay away from the Sambal, I SWEAR ITS DEADLY ): Bad experiences.... that even my HAPPY SODA couldn't cure. In fact, it only made it worse! D:

Well at least I know where to go when I'm sad now. HAPPY SODA FTW! ♥ No Happy Avenue. TOO FAR! xP

Foodz! We ordered Ayam Penyet, Embal Penyet and some beef ball penyet thingy, whatever it was called. Lol.

After dinner, went to camp at a kool place. Where I wrote this:

& you can still wonder why I say my chinese sucks? LOL. two years of not writing chinese, already become like that. It would be a miracle if I can still remember how to write my chinese name man! HAHAH. But I had a great time tonight, with great company (: Laughing our ass off at stupid things LOL. 

& I still cannot imagine being with anyone else other than you. 

♥

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Adam - Chocomints are EVIL. lolz. and yeh, EPIC photo :D SUKI SUSHI SOON OKAY? IMY! :D

Ces - Isn't it like Judy Garwood or something liddat... Lol. I'm pretty sure it isn't Julia. Lol.

Philyouth/Easter

Extreme Makeover is bloody suicide.

Easter

Uneventful, didn't even feel like a proper easter sunday ):

Philyouth

Ownage, as usual.

If you can't see it clearly, click the picture. Its epic, really.

Photo post!

Heys! Lol finally I got around to doing this, although I'm still very lazy to arrange the photos in chronological order ):

First up, study sessionz at tpy... Nothing much, because i was actually studying, aha.

The EVIL fattening choco mini snack ):

HA this was evidently while I was alone. I got too bored with Chemistry ):

K dats all. Now... Service Learning!
Why is the sky blue? and the sand blue too? I have no idea what people are doing to the beach but it sucks man. And this the less populated area somemore.

Mr Krabs!

I thought the sky was beautiful on that day (:

Clique photos? (: Always missing one person though, lol.

K! Gloria Jeans! You guys should srsly go to Gloria Jeans for Coffee. Its imba cheap I tell you! 3 bucks for an iceblended after 3pm on weekdays, like zomg. The only downside is if you sit there for too long you will freeze to death. Its damn cold, even with my jacket on. But anyways, I decided to try out the food there and ZOMG its damn worth it? I paid 10 for a tuna salad, iceblended and a lamington.

Nice Pink Lamington! 

If you duno what a Lamington is, the white stuff is coconut i think, and the inside is sorta like spongecake. Yeah.

Omg the tuna salad was heavenly.  :D

My strawberry iceblended! I didn't wna order coffee cuz I already drank a cup that morning so.. yeah.

AHA. Took this a few days ago on the way to Max's house.  Had imba tiramisu there made by his parents. yumyumyum (:
Srsly, I don't know how you learnt to camwhore on the bus hahah. The RJC girl was laughing at us!!

And finally, some group pics.

SA171! ♥
Couldn't have done it without you guys :D

Sports Day (: Waste of time hahah.

Service Learning!
Cross Country 2009!

This is a group pic too okay! S28 bagpack class! (: ♥

And they say all good things come to an end.

OH btw I think I'll do a photo post tomorrow. 

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Terry -  haha uh I hope you like the shirt haha.

YY - YES YOU DO! And you like talking to inanimate objects too! Thereby making you weird (: ♥

Ces - TOTALLY HAHAHA.

imposter mar - >_<

zn - YAY that song is so addictive! hahah.

Max - HI! Lol don't worry I already posted the link there. (: 

I know for a fact that it's really rare to have moments in your life when everything is going right/nothing is going wrong, and I'm really really thankful to be having one of those times now. Its not like everything is going my way PER SE, but I'm certainly not having any problems and its more like nothing is going wrong for me these few days (: 

For one, I passed my VERY LAST Napfa test with a gold! :D I'm pretty amazed myself, because I've set personal records I'd never thought I'd achieve :) But thats just the beginning of my awesome life now haha.

PW results out tomorrow! I am not exactly excited, but I think I can safely say I'm not exactly very worried about results. Not that I'm thinking that I'll do very well, but mainly because when I handed up the GPF last year, I put my fate into the hands of our teachers, knowing that there's nothing else I can do to pull up my grade and I've already done the very best I can. I think if I get a C I'd still be devastated, but as of now, I'm not really bothered (: 

While I was listening to my (hehe) iPod today on shuffle, I came across a song by this artist I haven't really heard for awhile (like 2 months? lol.) and suddenly memories came flooding back. Those memories weren't really from very long ago, but they meant alot to me. I wrote a short piece on it in my notebook, so hopefully I will remember those times forever. ♥

Studies have been a major headache the past few months. But I think now I am so carefree that even studies don't affect me anymore. It feels good to be working hard and KNOWING that you're putting effort into improving (even though i'm getting worse somehow). It is hardly a chore as much as something I need to do to improve myself. To think I've devoted 2/3 my waking hours to something as mundane as that, and I don't even think about it half the time. The other 1/3 is spent on leisure, just in case you're wondering (: Computer time ( sometimes it scares me when I think of the number of hours I waste on the comp :x ), Philyouth, Reading romance novels (one every weekend from now on!), talking on the phone... etc. I cannot imagine going full steam just before A levels and cutting all these out. They are so important to me! Lol. But yeah, time flies when you're having fun. 

My beloved friends (the ones not from SA) are doing so well in school now (: Lester even has high chances of becoming House Captain! (: Kudos to him for being so awesomeeee, and wishing him all the best! (:

I'm thinking of stuff that I want to do before I die and one of them would be to learn the drums, and play with a band, even if its for ONE song, IN THE JAMMING STUDIO, even THAT is good enough for me. 

Stuff that I want to learn before I go into uni? Two piano songs that I've already decided, and guitar basics! (meaning to at least be able to hold my own and dont take that literally lol)

I've also just received inspiration from Julian Bliss (i think thats his name), the clarinet prodigy! He's so freaking good omg. I shall press on! 

I love, and am loved ♥

Actually, I'm sure there's lots and lots more but I think this is enough for now lol. (:

I think for once, I'm going to be able to say that I'M WELL AND TRULY HAPPY.

♥

OMG. You guys should totally go and watch this!! :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sGyNP0jsODk

& comment too! He pwns, like srsly!! :)))))))

ZOMG. I was just reading through my old stuff, and LOOK WHAT I FOUND!!!

http://suzyheartsmar.livejournal.com/

HAHAH. Joke!

I miss those times.

I realised to be really immature then, and to tell you the truth, I think I've hardly grown? LOL. There's another love-list blog I drew up, 10 reasons why I love certain people.. I feel like starting it up again haha ^_^

There's Philyouth tmr! :D Terence, don't worry. I'll give you your present then (:

K bye, going out to study at tpy now. I'm gna be all alone so if anyone wants to accompany me gime a call! LOL.

I wish I could say I miss you and not get judged.

Srsly, now I'm just going to DIVE INTO (yes really dive) my bed and snuggle under the covers and GO TO SLEEP, because I am so sick of studying (UGH!!!) and I'm srsly suffering from lack of sleep.

So..

Good Night World!

I feel so productive today ♥

Wow. Really.

The feeling of reading a paperback cover to cover (romance, no less) can be really satisfying, especially since now all I ever think about is school. Ironically the book I was reading turned out to have school in it and the people all turned out to be muggers, but with a life. So hopefully it will rub off on me eh?

I miss my life, I miss my friends, I miss YOU. 

♥

P.S. Yesterday Lester was letting me listen to songs on his iPod, and this song started playing, by the Plain White Ts. It's called.. 1,2,3,4.

There's only 1 thing 2 do, 3 words 4 you,

I love you.

There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do,

I love you.

I duno, it just caught my attention and I thought it was cute.

Do we, at this age, even know what love really is?

OMG LA. If you haven't watched Shopaholic yet, GO AND WATCH NOW. 100% no regret! (assuming you're a girl/girly guy lol). The guy's damn hot (HUGH DANCY, and omg i realise i think hugh grant is hot too ahahah), the show's freaking funny, and totally worth my money! :D Maybe I just needed a laugh after my disastrous BT1 results for math, (MAJOR DISAPPOINTMENT WALAO.) but it definitely did its job well. I can't stop being high about the movie now, I think I'm going to read the book. ZOMGGGGGGGGGGGG.

Bring back.

ZOMG I've got a bad craving for steamboat. Can we go out and eat one day? Maybe cuz I'm sick and I cant eat anything else. My goodness I should stop eating out, I'm going broke. But I CANT HELP ITTTT ):

I realise I've been pretty PMS-y these few days. 

Sorry guys, I hope you know I don't mean it. -hugs.

Maybe I should start splashing in life's puddles?

Got back Physics and Chemistry BT1 results today. Totally not what I expected, in a good and bad way I guess. Glad I passed both, feeling pretty screwed up that they weren't really up to standard. Got hammered by my mum for Chem results, and she's been complaining that she pays so much for my Chem tuition and I didn't get an A or a B. Well, I'm paying too =.= 70 bucks a month is alot for me, considering my "income" (is only 120 a month), hence alot of it comes from my savings. ): But yeah I think I did pretty okay on the whole, considering i slept at 8 on the night before the Chem and Math papers. Maybe extra sleep DOES bring about miracles eh? HAHA. Guys if you wna know the secret to doing well without studying, sleep earlier (so you can pay attention in class)! HAHA okay don't take this from me I'm not reliable. But well it works for me, so who knows (: [TOTALLY NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK MATH. got a feeling its gona be a big disappointment...]

God grant me the serenity 

to accept the things I cannot change; 

courage to change the things I can;

and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time; 

Enjoying one moment at a time; 

Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; 

Taking, as He did, this sinful world

as it is, not as I would have it; 

Trusting that He will make all things right

if I surrender to His Will;

That I may be reasonably happy in this life 

and supremely happy with Him

Forever in the next.

Amen.

This prayer was read out during the serenity reading today, and I was just reflecting on how meaningful it all was. To ask God to grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, change the things I can, and for wisdom to know the difference between the two. These few days (or rather few weeks) have been rather stressful (or more than usual), having to juggle block test studying, among the other stuff (problems that teenagers face everyday, yknow?), and I've been complaining alot to a few people (If you've been one of them, sorry!) and I realise sometimes things just CANNOT be changed, and I have to adapt to them eventually. I know that God has been there with me all this while, and that will never change. And I think sometimes its through the little things like scripture readings in the morning (which sometimes I dont pay attention to because LBY can talk for AGES) where God chooses to reach out to us, hinting to us the things that we should be asking for, Wisdom being one of them, instead of the shallow, material(well not really) things we tend to ask for. 

The last four lines of the prayer speaks volumes, don't you think? (:

♥

Economic growth

Investment for A levels involves time and money, among other things (which i havent thought of).

Time - Studying, Travelling to-and-from school, Going to Popular to buy nice stationery for writing and colouring notes (and buying yellow highlighters!), Drawing money from my bank account! (omg need to find a job after A levels to replenish the dwindling amounts. Goodness I realise I'm spending it all on food, and tuition fees too :x )

Money - Transport costs, Fees for that study room at Toa Payoh Central CC which I will hopefully use, Food and drink to keep me entertained (lol) while studying, Tuition fees (as punishment for not studying effectively, but i dont deny it when I need help) 

It all sucks, I know. 

But the point of investment is for future benefits, no? (: 

Studying FTW! (stupid econs)

♥

P.S. And omg I so want to go bowling right now, but my ball is.. ): K nvm. FRIDAY! Bowlingz + Tuition YAY.